i released my posts today, since it was officially announced during assembly
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we went for weiqis wake today. and it was an experience i never want to repeat again, even if i know thats impossible.
i met elaine and thashi at lavender mrt today. we waited for mel loon, jiacong, nora, yitong, yidan, yen, chow and alexys. then a few went to take jeanhuis mums car. and the rest of us walked there. on the way, we stopped by a florist and a few went to buy flowers. yellow roses.
it really felt so... so real when i looked at the screen and it said : Ms Lim Wei Qi 5th Floor. it was terrible. we all took the lift up. and at the entrance, i saw her parents for the first time. weiqi looked so much like her father. so so alike. and i felt the tears well up. her mother hugged every one of us and she was crying. but her father looked so strong. then we went in and queued up to see her body. (for those who dont feel comfortable reading this, skip the next paragrah, but i really need to get it out of my system)
and it didnt look like her at all. her picture was surrounded by yellow roses and sunflowers. and her body was in this white casket. she was so...unreal. her fingers were so pale, they looked like rubber. and her lips were pink lipstick. and her cheeks were covered with blush. but she didnt look alive. didnt look like the weiqi i knew. and in a way that was good. cos it made it easier for me to not believe that it was her. but it was disturbing all the same.
after we viewed the body, we sat around and ate peanuts and have drinks. and we saw all her baby pictures. she was really cute. really cute. and her dad came to tell us how she died. (skip the next paragrah too if you feel unwell.)
apparently she had a brain tumour AND a one in her uterus. none of the 104 psls knew lor. she fell into a coma on thurs so they tried to put some tubes into her to get the fluids out, but she started bleeding badly. so they planned to try again on friday. but on friday her heart stopped so they had to resucitate it. and so they planned to do it again on sat. but at 3am on sat morning, her heart stopped. and they couldnt get it going again.
after that, we decided to give her the card that 104 made for her. even though they still dont know about her demise, but we just...felt that she would like to know how much they loved her. so we went with her mother to give it to her. and she was telling us about all the letter she had received. she didnt get the chance to reply all of them. only one. it was really upsetting.
but yeah. i really pray that she will be forever happy by the Lords side and i am sure we will always rmb her. and if i dont sound very upset in this post or the last, its just cos...i dont know how to express this feeling. its... indescribable.
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{12:29 pm}
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
for those who dont know yet, weiqi passed away today. and as her psls, i think we, chowyue, elaine, choo yen lin and i, were hit pretty badly.
when tammy told us, i was just dumbfounded. yes i knew that she had to go for an operation, but i had thought that it was only a small one. at least until jacky told us about it during sec-c meeting today. but still. the possibility of her passing away. it was just not there. i mean. i totally thought that she would be ok and fine and well meet her next week for psl sessions. i never for one moment thought that i would never see her gain.
we were on our way to the psb to get our orientation shirts when tammy told us. it was like. suddenly all the noise just stopped. i was so shocked. i didnt know what to do. and neither did any one else. tammy was so lost. and so were jacky and ruoxi and becca. and zhiying. we just looked at each other, at our shocked faces and stopped. when tammy told us that a jpsl was crying in the foyer, we all went to the foyer, because we didnt know what else to do. but when i got to the foyer, i saw violet and the rest of her om team sitting on the floor discussing. and so i told her. and at that moment the truth set in.
the kind of feeling i am feeeling now, its... its realy indescribable. its grief, mixed in with much much more. i regret not getting to know her better. i regret that she had to go so soon. she was only in her teens. shes barely started the year, shes not been initiated, not gotten her jspl badge. not gotten to know her classmates or 104. and she wasnt given the time to. and i empathise with her family. with her. shes been anaemic since birth and that means that she has to constantly go for injections to get more iron into her blood. and it explains so much. i thought that when she needed to go to g.o so often was because she felt faint just you know, like how fik gets faint once in a while. i didnt know it was that serious. i didnt think it was that serious. now, knowing the truth, abovea ll the other feelings, i respect her much much more . i applaude her. despite all that, till the very last time weve met, shes has been so enthusiastic. really. she practically begged me to mark the attendance once. that time i was just okayyyy. but now, it really showed her passion. her courage. in fact our last contact was just... last monday. when we sent her the proposal for the 5th psl session. and this was how it went:
I'm really sorry...i won't be coming to school for quite a while....i'm gonna have an op so need to be hospitalised... but i will be coming on Tues and Wed. Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -weiqi-
in her exact words. then, i was just like oh ok! get well soon! i mean, if you read it again, the way she put it was.... it didnt seem very serious. it was filled with optimism. and thats the kind of girl she was. happy. happy weiqi. she was so cheerful. and and...
i dunno. i really dunno.
but i do know one thing. the kind of girl she is. she'll feel happy anywhere. and no matter where she is now, she will be really happy. and for that, i feel comforted.
for those others who have known her, and im sure there are plenty, her wake is at 3pm tmr at singapore caskets. if you cant make it, show your love by changing your personal message to include (#). because shes as bright as the sun
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{4:41 pm}
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haha. as you can see, my blogs pretty much not updated during week days. this i must say, is wholly attributed to my immense amount of hw. so from now onwards, you guys only have to come on week ends! haha. yup. anws.
mon:
mon was fun! we (bio ra people) went to the raffles museum. it was uber cool. like we saw many dead animals! which are stuffed. or in jars of alcohol. like we saw a dead banded leaf monkey (: (AUTHORS INTERRUPTION: DID YOU KNOW THAT THERE ARE ONLY 20 BANDED LEAF MONKEYS IN THE WORLD AND ALL 20 OF THEM ARE HERE IN SINGAPORE? bet ya didnt. haha) and we met the women who stuffs all the animals! shes like the only animal-stuffer (or taxidermist) in singapore! so it was cool. yeah. and we learned lots. like how corals reproduce (by mass sporing (: ) and other stuff. yeah. and we got to go behind the scenes to see all their other collections that werent displayed. super cool lors. they have birds that are 100 years old! ( actually 100 years dead. btw whatever.) the visit really showed how cool singapore is lor. and how diverse. haha. apparently many scientists come here to our lousy bukit timah hill and discover like a few hundred new species. haha. so bth isnt so lousy after all. lol.
tues:
nothing exciting. at least not as exciting for me to rmb. see how short-term my memory is?
wed: ditto
thurs:
oo. thurs was gm! haha. gm was fun! like we played energizers! and ate chocolate! and sang "there are no bananas in the sky!" ! yeah. it was good to get back as a board again. haha. oh and this year we have like code of conduct. which means they're going to be a lot more strict. yeah. pretty much consistent with pbs uped standards. i wonder if this is a coincidence?
fri:
fridays today! tgif. haha. it was slack lah. like i had a free block and everyone started to do their math hw and singin weird songs. like stars are blind. and avril lavinge songs. and a lot of other weird stuff. but it was fun. (; very bondingish. good for class spirit (; haha. so i hope we do that every free block (:
we had trg today! theres this really pro sec one whos already confirmed a spot. shes uber good. like really really. and theres another one too. so yeah. our cca has hope! haha. as for me. well, i skipped. i did weights. i jumped over cones. and i played freeze and melt. yeah. but i didnt touch my racket. heh.
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HELLO MY BELOVED LOVELY FRIENDS! IM BACK FROM OBS!!!lalala. i feel sooo good right now. im clean and full and I CAN SEE. hahahahaha. obs was great. and tell you guys IM SO UBER LUCKY.the first day was joy. my whole class was residential. haha. so we got to sleep in nice bunks and all. and eat canteen food. we got split up and mixed. like for me, i was with some people from 304. and our watch was dhanabalan! yes. who on earth is he? i was like totally what?! apparently hes some minister. dunno. but day one was very uneventful lor. all we did we trust games. yeah. but being resi not all good lor. we had to wake up at 5 so that we can run 3 rounds around the campus. like we were super tired and sleepy and we had to run. but other then that yeah. it was good. day 2 was really fun! we kayaked! for like 3 hours. kayaking is love! omg. hahah. im a kayak fan! lalala. i did a really stupid thing while kayaking though. i dropped my paddle while rafting. so i had to row with my hands. and chow yue had to row like crap to get back to the group. hahahaha. im amused. lol. then we had heights. with was also very funny. i was up there and then jo ho was like "jo! why are you laughing?!" and because im weird like that, i started laughing. really hard. in the middle of the air. lol. and then i slipped on like the last set of thingums. and fell on chloe. as in she was belaying me. haha. i was laughing like shit. but the harness was damn pain. i have abrasions lah. hurts like crazy when i walk.day three was like.... dead. we trekked for 11 km for 6 hours with 10 plus kg bags. like instead of heading for camp 2 straight, we were forced to go all around the island looking for checkpoints with "meaningful" quotes on it. i nearly died. i know the mobile people got it worse. but that didnt really help when i had to climb up and down in the hot sun. not did i dont symphatise the mobile people. but anws, it was B-A-D. and then we went to camp 2. camp 1 is heaven compared to camp 2. i saw it and was totally like "violet was soo right to hate me." we cooked our own food and pitched our shelters (bershar?barsar? whatever mans) using the turp (THAT I CARRIED. HEAVY!!) and sticks and twine and poles and ground sheets. and then we slept. like logs. chloe was laughing like shit larh. along with chowyue. and it wasnt even funny. omgs. why do i know such weird people. haiz. haha.day 4 was lol. we rowed from camp 2 back to camp 1. like in a row boat. but instead of just going straight there. we had to row around this stupid island. and aviod all the fishermen and stilt houses and all. so sadistic. it was super hot lor. like everyone thought we could survive without getting burnt then day 4 wahhh. tsk. i was applying sunblock like siao. every hour put new layer. lol. we rowed for like 3 km for 5 or 6 hours. i think. and the weather was weird. like one moment we were all roasting and then next it was raining. and we were damn suay cos the tide and wind was like supposedly the strongest in the year. apparently its called the "spring tide" we were rowing like siao. like we row and row then we stop for 1 min and we drift back like 500+ metres. pissingfying lor. and sometimes we row and row and not move a single bit. sighs. so in the end we all got towed further up. ours was the only boat nottowed to the jetty. so we had to row like shit. yup. i was actually on the fastest boat lor. but then had to switch to the slowest boat. but then we rowed all the way to the first, then got blown back to last, then row back to first again. haha. ARENT WE A DETERMINED DARK HORSE. lol. up till now i still have the weird feeling that my world is rocking.day 5 came fast. like suddenly obs was over kind. haha. we played station games with our classes. but we were all kinda dead cos we were like super tired. and wanted to go home. yeah. and so that was my wonderful obs experience. it was a lot less tough then i expected, but then its cos im resi. and im surprisingly not too biteful (haha i know i invent a lot of words). and not so burnt. super many people were burnt lor. there was this girl with first degree burns. and another (names not mentioned for privacy sake) had second degree burns. like her whole scalp had blisters and they burst so her hair was all covered with pus. oh mans. get well soon kays. ill give a huge hug when you are discharged!
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{8:12 pm}
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hihi!because i want to get this over and done with before i hit obs, heres my posts for the past week. the past week has been nothing short of hectic, esp since i have to miss so many classes for orientation (for the sake of not typing such a long word, for the rest of the post, i shall just call it o). so half the time im rather lost. but anws.lets start with teachers! haha. but i must say that so far my teachers for this year seem to seem rather not bad. i havent gotten to get used to their style and all yet, but there arent any really bad ones. but i did get ms may tan and ms tan for chem and bio ra, and appartenly they are good, so im looking forward to their lessons. haha.o has been a really fun and exciting time. haha. ri wasnt that enthu until like the 7th session or something, when the sec 1s got scolded really badly for the lack of the above mentioned enthuness. then after that suddenly the volume of the cheers went up. haha. psls sessions have been fun. at least for me. im quite sure some fourers enjoyed. nope scrap that. im quite ALL THE FOURERS LOVED IT TO PIECES! hahahaha! ok. nvm. yup. but they better for all the effort we put in to the proposals. haha.o camp was really rocking and rolling. lol. even though like it was raining and everyone had to yell at the top of their voices (which sucked cos mine already hurt from a sorethroat and ri) to be heard over the rain during station games and we got a bit confused and went to the wrong stations and our picure got taken like many many times and all. but we had fun! (: haha. then was my favourite part of o camp: showering! hahaha. i finally got to bang on the doors like my psls did to me. it was so fun! ok i know im gaining sadistic pleasure. but who cares? it feels good. haha. we were like doing raffles jam on the doors and all. lols.night surprise! was kinda screwed. cos our song was too soft, so we, the people on the stage totally couldnt hear the song. so we were kinda half following other people and all. but the prefects were cool! and the spsls (: haha.now that its over, i feel reallyreally touched thinking back to all the sacrifices all of the sls have done for the o. from all of us sacrificing our holidays to do proposal and meet up for trgs and dry runs. ponning cca and 3rd lang for dance pracs. claire dancing despite her foot which she sprained and was swollen until it was purple, jingles and psls staying up till 3 to do the pressies, jasslyn and psls painstakingly sticking on the letters. yen and yue and i braving the rain to get the socks and the list goes on and on and on and on. i really feel like giving all of you such a big hug. o camp has been unbelievable and im sure all of us got to know each other so much better, from meeting up for dance to crashing in the SLACK (haha. quote violet) aka the shared classroom to catch on sleep and do presents. and all. i think this experience has really pulled us all together, both within psb and with pb and all. love you guys too much. and i reallyreally am touched by all of you. great job and thanks for the effort. BIG HUGS AND KISSES! for the sec ones im insanely proud. but your journey has just started and i know that you guys will and can do much much better. love you guys, keep rocking and ill see you at psls sessions! (:oh and i must also thank my spsls andrea nd joelynn and my prefect ruiling for the pressies. love you guys!
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
o camp is officailly over!!! haha. im both sad and happy, but now no time to update yall so ill do it some other time. yup. anws, just want to say to all the sls, the prefects, pits, jpsls, psls, spsls, you guys rock! thanks for the great job and all your effort and all that stressing out and everything! you guys have been great and i know all of you are very tired and everything but yall still gave the o camp all you've got, so well done! love you guys muchily and gives you a big hug!! haha. yups. and also sec ones. thanks for the enthuness. keep rocking! hope you guys have had fun (:
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
today is the second day of school! haha. the sec ones were more enthu today. which is good! and the school tour ended early. which meant more time! haha. which of course was good. i like my class already. (: they are nice. and guai. ok not all of them. some of them are still shy. but i bet at the end of orientation, we'll be really hyper! haha.
i met my rumoured oh-so-great form teacher today. shes from the uk and has just migrated 5 weeks ago. shes nice. ok lah. and my clet also. is ok i mean. yup. but our class is uber stone. even though there are enthu peeps like me and sharon and joho and sarah chong in it. yup. but nvms! we will get more happy (: and our seating plan is super weird! like a horseshoe. except we had too many peeps so there are extra tables in the horseshoe. where im sitting. so if someone talks, i have to turn around or crane my head! which is bad. but anws. i can live with it.
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because blogger was being mean to me and not loading, this shall be my birthday post. you guys can just all pretend today is the 3rd of january.
thankyouthankyou to all the nice peeps ( i think peeps is my new favourite word) who rmbed! and even more who gave me prezzies! haha. i like them (: although i really must say jingles was really..... unexpected. and highly un-me. but anws. thank you annie and hoho for the earrings you each gave. and jingles for the very weird present. and shimin for the nice dice and giraffe and pink tea candle ?! and chowyue for the nice candle. (no shimin, her candle was different from yours. which is why hers is nice and yours is just plain weird.) and van for the kaychain thingy. and mabel, joelynn and andrea, and david and family for the boxes of chocolates. and my mommy and daddy for the nice dinner and fruits. yup. thank you thank you! love you guys all muchily and have a great school year ahead.
oh and also minji and tim and van and chow yue for the birthday smses (:
ok enough about me and my oh-so-wonderful-birthday. today was the first day of school! muahahaha.
orientation was ok larh. except its really really tiring to keep being enthu and hyped and energetic. especially when the sec ones are like....dead. yeah. and that time was so tight. we couldnt even do half the things we were supposed to do during psl session. or ri. but anws.
and mrs tan cheated! she just took the welcom to rgs talk wich she gave the sec ones and changed it to welcome back to rgs sec threes! so the sls all heard it like twice. which is why there were some people at the back sayin the big good big bad thingy. yeah.
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hihi!happyhappy07 peeps!! haha. spent the whole of yesterday eating and playing cards and watching pirates and school of rock with friends. it was good (:anws. as we usher in the nice new year, i only have one simple wish.LESS STRESS.im serious. with all the stress i expect to get, itll be a miracle if my hair doesnt turn all white by the end of next year. and im not kidding. my hair is already white cos of my dads genes. really. just that they're all either half white (like at the roots) or hidden at the bottom so you cant see it. but ITS OK! im sure my ENTHUness (come one second-batch-of-twoeleveners-to-go-for-S&D. repeat after me! ENTHU!) and HAPPYness will cover it all. haha. im young at heart. just kidding. anws. that means that today is the ONLY DAY LEFT IN MY HOLIDAYS. becuase i have dance prac tmr for the whole day and school starts on the 3rd. im trying very hard not to freak out. sighs.i guess this is life.
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