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Designed by: hawKS
Pictures from: ~nandolucas
Codings: Ebullient*

disregarding my recent state being for a while (aka 撇开最近的情绪不谈, because its sounds nice and i just wanted to include it) , i really just want to talk about art in this post.

cant rmb if i mentioned it, but ive started lessons. the first was last week. the final purpose of the lessons is to learn fundamental oil, but no one jumps into oil straight away so its going to be much more than that.

the preliminary lessons proved that i possessed sufficient sketching skills to move on from pencil, so ive been given the green light to start on charcoal this sunday. charcoal is a brand new medium for me, so im pretty excited. in fact, i just got my materials today and cant wait to put pen charcoal to paper xD

ive pretty much forgotten how it felt like to sit down for 2 hours, look at something and think of nothing but shadows and shape. its a very... therapeutic? experience and given the hours to look forward to in school, probably the only time my brain can rest besides sleep. i do hope i can keep this up, however, but i speculate future free time, so i think i can handle 2 hours a week.

the downside to all of thss is that while drawing bottles of different transparency can be highly satisfying at the end, theres not much emotion involved in traditional forms of art. i mean, you could make the bottle look lonely or overcrowded by arrangement, but theres no such thing as a sad or happy bottle so theres only so much you can go. and given that 2 hours a week pretty much satisfies my art cravings and takes up the time i allocate to random drawing every wek, ill pretty much be hard pressed for time and energy to complete any of the other random pieces i come up with.

but we'll deal with that when it arrives. after all, ive been known to drop everything and just draw. heehee.

i put up pieces when they are completed and i have the time. the first ones not too special so ill leave it for the time being, but there will be better ones to come as i begin on charcoal.

Escaped {8:42 pm}

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just as i thought i was taking Firm Steps into the light, i once again found myself in the dark today, sitting alone but not alone in the 7.00pm pick up point.

since when did this darkness become a freaking abyss?

Escaped {8:02 pm}

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i sat in my room, in the dark, as the sky began to rumble outside, trying to figure out how to want to do my econs essay, trying to figure ut how to want anything anymore.

then i decided, like ive done a dozen times before, to give up. for real, this time.

i will give up. (dammit.)

and then i climbed out of my chair and went to switch on the light.

Escaped {2:51 pm}

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Excerpts from Gross Domestic Happiness, by Lee Yew Leong, referred to by geoff. Its a rather cool presentation of a short story about a pair of gay partners in a long distance relationship, how the distance causes them to drift, and how one partner feels about his sexual orientation and becomes attracted to someone else (Tom, being the third party)

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(wrt to pinball)

"So imagine: you're concentrating on the ball you started with. You're identifying completely with it, and the all of a sudden these stupid duplicates come out from nowhere and fill the screen, derailing the focus you've cultivated for the duration of the game. Where's that ball? Where's that one thing you've hinged everything on: your consciousness and your identity? Instantly, you lose track. There are just too many of them now."

G. thought about the countless Agents in "The Matrix" swarming Neo.

"But then you realise," Tom said, leaning closer to G., "it doesn't matter. Because ultimately, you are the one who has invested the identification, it's you who have chosen to play like that. So it's not even an inherent fact of the game, you see. And that's when the epiphany strikes you: the greatest tompe l'oeil isn't in the convincing graphics, or the physical laws that make the game real, it's on the fact of you. And at that point, you just want to laugh."

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"What would a whore do with happiness?" he snapped.

"Oh," D. said, suddenly afraid. If his lover got angry he would hang up and they would not speak again until after the weekend. So D. added, "What would anyone do with happiness?"

Their conversation often ran away from them like this, leaving both parties speechless.

"I dunno..." G. said at last. "Play with it?"

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a pretty thought provoking piece. i like it. :D even if the rubiks cube makes things a little confusing.

on a seperate point, ive been wondering, since that gp discussion about homosexuality, if im particularly liberal. considering, after a long pondering period, i concluded that i honestly would not be too disgusted/disturbed if i saw a gay couple in the supermarket carrying a baby, given that they conduct themselves appropriately in a public setting, just as all other heterosexuals should. (hypothetically, of course, since ive never seen one and probably wouldnt in any near future.) but yes. its kind of interesting, especially since my family background gives me more reason than anyone else to be all conservative and anti-homosexuality and all. the only thing i could think up was the recent increase in homosexuality in greys anatomy.

-shrugs-

Escaped {6:46 pm}

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degradingly pathetic, sly, or painfully true?

Escaped {8:31 pm}

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Case Study 1: the journey of joous waterbottle

during lunch, in canteen:
me: AHHHH! -digs around bag- WHERE IS MY WATER BOTTLE! DDDDD:
biang: huh. is it that one. -points at random bottle-
me: no! mine is prett(ier)!
biang: ohoh! the one with the giraffe.... sticker.
me: NO! i drew it! but ahhhhh! this is the second time ive lost it T.T

-mourns and whines-

after school, in canteen:
me: GEORGEEEEEE! i lost my bottle today i am very sa-
-peers past georges' head-

OH.

Case Study 2: joou's epic blood donation adventure

after getting her blood pressure and iron concentration tested:
-sits on chair and begins to feel very nervous D:-
nurse: ok girl, can you squeeze for me, i find your vein ah.
-obediently squeezes very hard-
nurse: eh girl ah. i cannot find your vein leh! your vein too small alr!
-sputters in disbelief as nurse checks other hand
nurse: yeah lah. go home and help your mother scrub the floor! then come back 6 months later!

DDDDDDD:

Escaped {7:01 pm}

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today was a thunderstorm that broke out into a rainbow.

:D

(and tmr is interact voting! i know its a bit annoying, but if you think im worth your vote, please support ^^)

Escaped {8:44 pm}

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oh my GAWD.

my mug has just made this very loud sound against the glass jug and i watched in horrid fascination as a sweet little chunk of the edge flew a meter across room.

(so much for cutting that word out)

Escaped {3:36 pm}

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i am hungry!

and have a whole day of math to look forward to. but ok wtvs.

ytd was MS CLAIRE LI JIA YI's SUPER SEXAYYYE SEVENTEENTH! jonlian spent a long time planning this super cheem surprise party that in the end was a bit of a fail, but ok ill elaborate on that later.

i planned to wake up bright and early! but in the end i overslept xD (and in doing so completely skipped out on ora, but if what rohan says is true then i havent missed out on much xD) so i rushed to school, dropped off my things in rohans locker (because mine couldnt open! and then later i found out that that was because i was trying to open the wrong locker) then rushed to wheelock to meet up with claire xD

the shopping spree we initially planned got kinda lost in the very lengthy lunch we had at nydc (which i later grew to regret) but catching up was really fun ^^ so i didnt really mind! anws after that i did manage to get a pair of shoes - in 15 minutes, which is kinda a record. but yes, i miss claire lots lots so it was nice to just sit and talk and stuff ourselves xD

after that i rushed back to school for the mr house party meeting, which i just found out was on the 8th of may, on which i have chinese drama syf and econs essay lecture test and dine in the dark so i have no idea how i am supposed to do all these! and whats up with 8th may anws! D:

after that meeting (which was held in this super hot room D:) i met up with rohan and we went to j8! cept i needed to top up my card so we missed the first 58, then after that he figured he should switch his card too. and then we caught 58 immediately :D

once we were on the bus, we figured out none of us actually knew how to get there! so we called biang, who apparently lives near claire. but, completely unexpectedly, the bus turned once, turned twice, then turned into the bus interchange. then turned into the bus interchange.

yes. we are such an epic fail.

so we got off, called the frantic jonlian to appease him and apologise (since it was kinda like alr 5.00?) and then just nice caught the outgoing 53.

our troubles, however, seemed to be following us because we nearly missed the stop. it went something like this.

-bus stops at random bus stop-
me: eh! its lorong chuan alr! see? -points to road sign-
rohan: oh.
me: ... we didnt miss our stop did we....
rohan: oh wait! look! cardiff court!
-insert mad rush to get off bus here-

yeahhh. once we got off, we ran into a few other people who were also as lost as us, so we called jonlian again, who sent fiona to get us xD

when we were all safely in her house, we sat around (out of the way of jonlian and his 172 balloons), talked, and played with her goldie, zachy. who is like the cutest, chubbiest not-so-little thing ever xD

the plan was something like this: claire comes home, goes into her room, sees the 172 balloons, we come out into the dining room, put up all the decor and bring out the cake and SURPRISE her.

but it went something like this. claire comes home, goes into her room, but all of us thought she was still outside. so we waited. jonlian figures we misunderstood his instructions and brings blindfolded claire downstairs. we... stare back at them in surprise and make jonlian bring her back up before we frantically put up the decor. claires mom signals jonlian to bring claire down again, we hide behind the sofa to surprise her. claire opens her eyes to the very pretty HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE SIGN and ... expresses joy. jonlian turns around and stares at us behind the couch and gestures. we stare back then, belatedly, jump up and go SURPRISE!

yeah. and then claire freaks out and hugs the wall.

the rest of the party involved a LOT of food (hence the regret) since her mom overestimated the guest count. claire was pretty much filled to the brim with food xD everyone sat around on the couch and watched Mimic on tv. watching b grade movies with arts students is quite an exprience. no one comments on how it is biologically impossible for cockroaches to be that big and instead, most of the time was spent making fun of various movie antics xD

we were all shooed out of the house at 9.30, leaving jon and claire to have their own little... celebration. but since my mom would take half an hour to get her, and another 15 minutes if she gets lost (but anws she took an hour in the end), i followed rohan to meet biang to return biangs jeans before returning to the front of claires condo.

and thus wraps up claires birthday! at least the part i took part in. i have no idea what happened after we all left.

and dont really want to know xD

Escaped {9:35 am}

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i just got home and have problems keeping my eyes open.

its been helluva week.

tmr though, it Shopping Day and therefore, promises a great time ^^

Escaped {7:12 pm}

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so i lied and am blogging anws.

bad day ended better because now i have a hot date with claire on sat! YAY.

and i bound my math booklet up with golden ribbon and ended said binding with a flourish - large golden bow on top! now it positively oozes bimboticness. bimbo math!

Escaped {7:59 pm}

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edit2: apparently, this is all because websites do not read tiff files, as enlightened by geoff o.o
edit: late publishing (written on sunday afternon) due to blogger unable to upload images D:<

argh! post was deleted and now, retyped D:<

zaki says i update fast than he can read! hahhaa. but ok, next week is a busy one so prob not as many.

anws! hols fly by so fast D: i did enjoy my friday though, theres something to be said about sitting alone on the carpet in a giant living room as the rain pour down outside and the sea churn away... and you do your chem tut

sentosa cove is sinful.

saturday was spent under the singapore flyer volunteering for a singapore heart foundation event. pretty unbusy, considering the volunteers vastly outnumbered any members of the public. but it was fun, i got to know some cool people. like this really old cute auntie who was all high and happy and stuffs xD when im that old i want to be like her! financially sound, free and dedicated to volunteering. ^^

last but not least, heres something done by yiwei and i, for an up and coming Interact event. (i did the drawing and left the cheem, difficult photoshopping bits for yiwei xD) yes! i havent stopped doodling yet (: most of them are just littered across lt tables and various classmates' wses thats all xD



publicity! its at a club and for charity. so come :D

Escaped {9:47 pm}

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kay imma like addicted to The Coffeehouse station on Yahoo! Launchcast. it has such pretty songs! like Boys with Girlfriends by Meiko. and its free! and legal! :D

so go check it out.

will be out laterrss until late. yay :D

Escaped {10:05 am}

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last block of the last day of the week is always the best! esp since it was bio lab and i tell you my bio lab tablemates are seriously retarded.

because:
1. there is rohan. self-explanatory.
2. there is gerald on steriods. i swear he is sooooo amusing and random and weird and makes strange noises all the time its like... tv! its seriously amusing just sitting across him and listening to him talk to himself.
3. there is mrs wan, who is super nice and gives us breaks during which we camwhore.

xD

bus ride back home today was with bryan (ogl+ interact senior). i think i pretty much drilled him on interact xD plus the info may help when i do run for chair.

last but not least, CONGRATS TO THE NEW COUNCILLORS! LIM FANGYI, RAM (like duh), JERALD HAN, SHORT, JOHO, THEO, ZEB, VIOLET, JEAN HUI, BIQUAN, CHUANHONG, AND VARIOUS OTHER PEOPLE I HAVENT HEARD OF YET!

that was a hint for you to leave a tag or something so that i can congratulate you :D

good friday tmr! invitations for one15 marina club, sentosa, for dinner. yay food!

(and dreaming with a broken heart would have been such a nice song if john mayer had james morrisons voice)

Escaped {3:59 pm}

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edit: Fidelity by Regina Spektor is up! :D also, check out the bottom left hand corner, underneath the tagboard, for a link to FreeRice, which is a wonderful website that helps you improve you vocab/math/wtv and donates rice to UN food prog at the same time!

today was an exciting day! ok fine partially cos i only wore my lenses on one side last night and woke up today with some kinda skewed eyesight. must make an appt with the optician soon! rawr D:

and partially also cos its wednesday :D

first! we got our new ezlinks. ok fine nows its called cepas or something. which has a totally strange blue bg with buses on it o.o and some people got their old photos on their new card so its was like omg CUTEEEEE TTM! esp since i was put in charge of this (why? im not even ct rep!) and thus got to see everyones photos xD

second! was pe! during which i found out that i can scrap a gold for napfa :D (again) i think. plus, with the help of two giant rubber bands, i did a few pullups! life is interesting that high up :D

then was interact gm, where we got briefed about interact exco and stuff. ram bugged me for the entire time to run for interact chair, and after that i was like.. why not? cos anws im alr in my dream cca so i have nothing to lose. in fact i have some stuff to add because my dream cca is not so dreamy after all xD

so! IM RUNNING FOR INTERACT CHAIR. if you know who i am (i would assume you would because you are reading this) PLEASE SUPPORT ME :D

if you're running let me know too! so i can support you (:

(there are speeches to deal with somemore. D: speeches D:)

but ok moving on now!

next was supposed to be bluebloods meeting, but that kinda ended prematurely so i was like o.o luckily too cos that meant i got to go home with ram :D and had a nice long talk with her on the bus. I LOVE YOU RAMRAM!

and now im home :D early! i should prob do some work and get to sleep earlier because i looked in the mirror today and was like AHHH EYEBAGS!

(and, im trying to cut omgs out of my vocab (langovan you need to learn from me and trim your vocab too) along with pocky, bottled mineral water, fishballs/meatballs/mushroom balls/sotong balls from my diet. :D)

Escaped {4:20 pm}

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today was a very wet day!

my bag decided to start a relationship with a puddle whilst i was away during pe. thanks to nicholas' brave attempts at dissuading it, and the simple fact that 95% of my notes exist in file sleeves, i managed to retrieve with minimal damage xD luckily too! else my file back cover, which was done in watercolour colour pencils, would have dissolved into a mixture D: shiyin was not as fortunate! her math notes had a very happy time in the rain :D

rain, also brings along cold. i miss my green jacket ): its still not dry from its customary weekly wash D:

Escaped {4:12 pm}

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okayyyy.

so the family pc has crashed, burnt and hereby resides as a giant metal dead box in the study. thanks to a computer genius neighbour however, all the info has been transferred into my beloved laptop.

which makes my laptop the only working computer in the entire house for the entire family.

demand goes up, supply remains the same leads to an increase in price! not that i can actually charge anyone for using my computer, sadly.

isnt it ironic the emo-est song ive ever heard is No Way Out by Phil Collins (soundtrack of Brother Bear, another of the countless disney movies that ive cried in D:)?

Everywhere I turn I hurt someone
But there's nothing I can say to change the things I've done
Of all the things I've hid from you I can not hid the shame
And I pray someone something will come to take away the pain

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There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no futureI know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
And I can't face another day

o.o

and fb movie quiz has informed me that i have no life because ive watched 93(>85) of the movies. D:< but its ok! gan says that "by American standards, we have no life but every single one of us is a genius."

:D:D:D

one more hour till litings party. i can amuse myself until then! -determined face-

Escaped {4:31 pm}

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HELLO ZAKI IM POSTING BECAUSE YOU TELL ME TOO :D:D:D

the power of readers!

haha today was relatively unexciting. D: i was at school at 9 for chinese soc props making! spending 3 hours on a foam bed is... tiring, but watching the fencers go around pretending to be enthu about their station games was relatively interesting. as was working with certain members of cldcs i never got to work with before :D

but people keep quitting chinese soc! im considering quitting and joining something equally inane, like oneearth, but whats the pt? xD

also, because my life is so boring, im shall embark on the Make Joou's Life More Interesting Initiative! (aka MJLMIII) the details still need to be ironed out, but it involves regular piano (like at really miniscule amounts = 1hour a week) and hopefully, oil painting :D:D ill post more about MJLMIII when i get everything sorted out!

uhhh, distracted. after chinese soc i had interact meeting! (edward is like omg hilarious) things are coming along nicely for the batch proj, which reminds me i have an email to send out DDD:

and uh yeah. 2 fast 2 furious is actually not as stupid as i thought it to be! SWEETRIDES :D:D:D but jan says that there is this jap (!!) movie called departures worth checking out, so i shall. soon.

litings bday party tmr! which means i have a present to rush out DDDD: but its ok i love liting!

Escaped {9:20 pm}

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im totally beginning to feel/ look like a zombie rawr. NEED SLEEP NEED SLEEP NEED TO STOP BLOGGING SO THAT I CAN SLEEP.

but wtv, people tagging makes me happy :D *hinthint* but ok, pictures! cos i brought my camera today :D


maggie and joce!


nad! for council!


oo slanted. roro and jojo!

the campaign fever is best expressed through fb. the last i counted i had 23 group requests, but i told that is very little xD see? i had to shrink my page super superly to fit them all in!



and im addicted to tom yam flavoured crispy seaweed DDD:

6 down 2 to go~~

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