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Friday, February 09, 2007

today is fridayyyyyy

which is good. but also not so good. ill elaborate. like later.

monday:

monday sucked. to put it frankly. anyways i dont want to talk about it anymore. basically i was scolded for something i didnt do. that i wasnt supposed to be scolded for. ok, maybe i did seem rude, but im not the person in-charge! im just like, a helper! i mean all i did was to volunteer. and then i got scolded for making a suggestion. so yeah. it sucked.

tuesday:

tuesday was my first meeting with my smp mentor. and it was...mind-blowing to say at least. what he taught us in the whole 3 hours, i mean. it was like a crash-course on immunity and let me tell you, DONT LOOK DOWN ON YOUR IMMUNE SYSTEM. COS ITS FREAKING COMPLEX. but i got it lah. what he was saying. so it was cool. but some parts a bit hard to grasp. not surprising, seeing how we were only poor little sec threes. but anws, it was fun.

wednesday:

wednesday was a talk by mr anslem chu. that speaks for itself. and i already went for the same talk twice. so yeah. but he was nice and let us not pay attention and do our own work. so yeah, it was quiteeeee ok.

thursday:

thursday was dance! btw, im talking about what i stayed back for for all the days k. cos school wasnt all that cool. ooo. that rhymed. but anws. dance was fun! haha. im surprised i can still rmb my steps. but yeah. and then after our dance got approved (btw, its going to be the same as the one we did for orientation. cos we are very busy people and have no time to rechoreo and practise.) we had to go and look for the teacher and apologised. so we did. so yeah. im glad we did.

today:

SMP LAUNCH 2007. for three hours at singapore poly. at least i got to pon trg. but still.... well, its SMP so i kinda wasnt expecting much. and i kinda felt quite sorry for joce. cos i was being emo on the bus. like emo emo not the "i will be emo" kinda emo. like i just shutup and stoned/wallowed in my misery for half an hour. why was i emo?

because everyone had someone to be with other than me. everyone had someone they loved most. but the people i love most... well. lets just say right now im kinda screwed. emotionally stressed. yes i know i have no right to be stressed cos i dont stay back everyday and i sleep at 10 but that just makes me more stressed. knowing that i cant be stressed i mean. i dunno lah. its just. well. i looked at everyone all grouped together. like its natural. then i realised that i HAVE NO "natural" grouping. i mean, L's always so popoular with EVERYONE. and shes always so excited to see T. and well. x. i dunno about x. i think shes stressed out too. plus all her personal prejudices. they dont help. not at all. plus she has here own new classmates anyways. its like... i dunno. maybe cos my class is so segregated. its like. everyones so indifferent to each other. if we wanted to be friends we could. but we can t be bothered cos there is no need to. so when i look at all the other classes, i feel so envious. and when i look at how all the 211ers and all my friends from last year have all..moved on. i feel like im emotionally retarded. yes i kow we'll still be friends and all. but right now. aiyah i dunno lah~! i just really feeling like going to some faraway place and scream my lungs out and then listen to the waves. and forget all about school and smp and trg and my back and all that shit. and its lie. everyone comes to me when they're emo. and i keep listening to all of them and talking to them and that makes ME emo. but when im emo. i dont have anyone to go to. not that no one cares. but its just... i dunno.

so yeah. but its really rare. for me to be emo. so i feel very bad for joce that she had to catch me when im emo. but yeah.

SMP... i cant exactly rmb. which shows how much attention i was paying. lol. mostly i was smsing a friend. but some of the speakers were really funny. and amusing. and the food was good.

yeah. i dont feel like blogging.

so im sorry if this post sucks.

Escaped {8:37 pm}

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