sure, the glamour, the pretty girls, the exciting camwhoring activities are things we all look forward to, but all that merely disguises the true purpose of FAM- our last chance to bid goodbye to this beautiful school that has taken us in as little egocentric know-it-alls and nurtured us for 4 whole years throughout what many people would claim to be the most difficult of the teenage years.
some say we're still egocentric know-it-alls. :D
i said i'll emo when the time comes, and i guess this song pretty much brought the start of it.
The miles are getting longer, it seems The closer I get to you I've not always been the best man or friend for you But your love remains true And I don't know why You always seem to give me another try So I'm going home Back to the place where I belong And where your love has always been enough for me I'm not running from. No, I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me But these places and these faces are getting old
sure, i didnt pay much attention to that first History of RGS talk Mrs Shirley Tan gave us on the first few days of school. i pretty much zoned out after "RGS is a very very old lady...". ditto for all the subsequent talks.
but as the time has come (and probably alr gone) for RGS to become a history for us, i guess all that talk about the legacy of RGS and all that never seemed to really apply to us is really all we have left.
all that enthusiasm shown by ex-RGS girls and here we are, ex-RGS girls ourselves.
"What kind of a legacy do you want to leave behind?"
Ms Doreen Tan asked us that a few days before graduation. and really i dont have an answer to that yet. i dont think ive even began to fully comprehend the influence RGS has had on my life, how she has molded me into the person I am today. i havent began to fully appreciate all the chances RGS has given me. through these years we've had so many opportunities to test our wings, opportunities that i am sure society will not be as kind to allow us. and when we fell because we flew too close to the sun, the school and the teachers have always displayed the kind of forgiveness that reality would never consider, even though its entirely our own stupidity that got us into that terrible state in the first place.
how can i understand what we meant to rgs, when i dont even understand what rgs meant to me?
these 4 years have been pretty much life-changing. from in between the exam peak periods to slack out crazy have fun times with friends, i guess ive learnt a lot. as the school painstakingly attempted to mold us not only into intellectuals, but also daughters of a better age, we've picked up, subconsciously or at times, against our own will, habits that i believe will serve us in the future.
the 16 habits of the mind, very fundamental. the skill of reflections. how to score high and aim even higher. how to bond with complete strangers through station games. how to eat a plate of rice in 2 minutes so you wouldnt be late for chemra class. how to give everything a shot. how to forgive others. how to forgive yourself. how to fail a test, valiently. how to believe in your own potential. how to never give up. how to trust your friends. how to depend on each other through the darkest of nights. how to taste a rainbow. how to appreciate what little time you may have after all that extra curriculum activities with your family. how to have fun. how to help other people. how to ask for help. how to be yourself. how to manage yourself. how to deal with stress.
the list goes one infinitely.
as far as regrets go, i dont really rmb having many. perhaps not joining osl. but when you're so busy having the time of your life, how can you still have time left over for regrets? ive been fairly lucky i guess, getting so many once in a lifetime chances. OM'06, wales'07, FAM'07, apcg'08, just to name a few.
next year is rijc. a new place, new friends, new cca, new classes, new life lessons. some people say its all going to be alright, because the people are going to be exactly the same. but its not. its not the same. nothings ever the same.
but of course we cant do anything about it.
our time as RGS students have passed. but im pretty sure all that we've learnt will stay with us for a pretty long time, just like how our faces will continue to grace her homepage.
but now, before we graciously become part of "generations of Rafflesians who have passed through its portals", its time to step into the spotlight one last time.
