my lightbulb just burst when i tried to switch it on, showering sparks across my table. DDDD:
-shrugs- cant help it, im just that electric xD
today was an interesting day. surviving without a voice, is something im pretty much HORRID at, considering i gave up towards the end and went around straining it anws. i can totally taste the blood right now. -winces- there shall be hell to pay.
but ah wells. just got home after spending a few hours watching in amusement as claire and gan sawed away behind the tsd room. which, btw, is
amazing! i resolve to SPEND MORE TIME IN IT, soaking in the sheer.... wonderfulness of it.
srsly. which other room in school has couches, super cool lights, their own fridge/toaster/coffee machine? WHYYYYYY isnt anything sciencey anywhere near half as fun! RAWR.
at times like this i wish tsd was an option for me. esp when numerous (tsd) people stand around you and attack you when you're still weak from awe at the amazing tsd room and try to persuade you to ditch econs and join tsd. D:< but its an "over my moms dead body" thing so yes, not and never will be an option.
unless i want to get disowned.
its kinda sadistically funny how much of a loser, good-for-nothing-waste-of-money slacker i am in my moms eyes. apparently, just because i didnt run for council (unlike sufen) and have no 4.0 gpa (unlike sufen) and therefore, no hope of getting top 10 best scorer (unlike sufen) or into a top 15 US university (unlike sufen) and will have to spend my time in nus (unlike sufen) and grow up to become a useless office worker woman, eg. secretary (unlike sufen), marry an equally useless not Nobel Prize winner/ million dollar earner (unlike sufen) and die a useless, wasted death (unlike sufen), im not worthy of anything.
yeah, my family is a little messed up, but whose isnt? besides, im too used to this kinda crap to be overly concerned, and its not like her wishing would actually get me a 4.0 anws. so i'll live, although maybe not tmr cos there was too much yelling for my poor throat to take it.
and they say im a mugger in school xD
but so be it. if i am bound to be worthless, im aiming to be happy while im doing it. prob wouldnt be let out to earth day picnic with the 411ers though, which is kinda disappointing.
and i was considering accepting yikais offer to be her tsd minion too, which would be some amazing fun :D but guess not.
Escaped
{6:04 pm}
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