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Friday, July 31, 2009

I AM DISTRESSED.

not emotionally. wait that doesnt make sense. not in the emo way i mean, despite last post. this has been the worse this term, but ive been to worst since the start of this yeah.

so yeah im fine.

BESIDES THE FACT THAT IM TURNING INTO CARDBOARD.

like seriously. ive been taking a lot of mrt lately and you know mrts and their "full length mirrors". i look like crap. and today when i randomly looked into the mirror i scared myself with my own reflection! (but ok that might have to do with the lack of sleep from last night, but you get what i mean)

when i say cardboard i mean those you know, pale, tall, skinny girls that... look like cardboard? you know? YEAH. never thought ill be one of those BUT I LOOK MORE LIKE THEM NOW MORE THAN EVER. im scared ): i dont want to look like cardboard ):

thus, im trying my very best to eat more, even though i have strangely not much appetite for the past few days. but ANYTHING IS BETTER THAN CARDBOARD.

skinny people scare the crap out of me. i want to look like i at least have some meat on my bones. so er, begins the jo-fattens-up programme.

Escaped {8:48 pm}

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