today is a cold day D:
but IM DONE. and its a kind of delirious joy. maybe im losing it hahahha.
my mommy told me randomly while we were watching tv just now that if she had a son my daddy wanted to name him brian,
步然 meaning "step into nature". its a good name, i like it :D i think my daddy has a way with names. too bad it sounds like
不来 so i never did get one ): i wonder how it would be like to have a brother.
i only found out this trip back that my cousins on my fathers side are also named something-ran. after me. my dad does have a way with names (:
names are such funny things. i rmb they used to say that its the only thing that belong to you that others use all the time. sometimes i look at my name and wonder about it. what does it mean to be a joanne? who are joannes? what determines a joanne? i have joho to look at, but we're so different. we say to live up to the name, and sometimes people just look like their names, but what exactly is it that makes it so? the more i look at it the more i feel like i dont know what my name means. it feels foreign, sometimes. maybe thats why i like my name to be in small letters or shortened to jo. Joanne is so... imposing and formal. theres a hint of elegance to it, i feel.
ahh. too much thinking.
Escaped
{9:47 pm}
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