Wednesday, August 19, 2009
gah.
im so. utterly confused and lost. and i have no bloody time to sort this out.
if ive learnt anything at all, ive learnt that in JC, everybodys life gets super confusing. and no one really has the time to DEAL WITH IT so we just let it be, and it snowballs into this. unrecognisable mess.
gahhhhhhh.
how much i wish i could be there for you, right now, holding you in my arms and telling you i'll be here, no mater what happens. but i cant, because i know that it will only last a minute, before i have to turn around and leave. and it kills me because i know you need someone with you now, and you dont have anyone else.
doesnt help, of course, that somehow, in a way i wasnt even aware of, my own life somehow became super complicated too T.T LIKE SINCE WHEN OMG.
life needs to come with pause buttons. because all this just makes me feel like eating my work like cookie monster eats his biscuits, and go to sleep.
thankfully though, my displaced brain is still lucid enough for me to focus on impt things. like chem spa today, which was kinda good (FINALLY A GOOD SPA FOR THE ONE THAT ACTUALLY AMOUNTS TO SOMETHING. THANK YOU GOD :D:D) and minds coming up. i swear, if something
else crops up, i will saw myself into two and drown each part of myself into the two halfs of the biodiversity pond.
eww.
Escaped
{9:09 pm}
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